Goodbye my first love, see you again......

On 20th November 2009, is the last day my status as couple. Now, I'm free single men with pain in my heart.......

As she started to date with me, I really - really care about her.....
But, since the day I break up with her, she became a different person. Not same like the women I love before. Her sadness makes my life ruin, I don't know what to do anymore..........

I've just phone her 20 minutes ago, and she share lots things with me......
Well, I accept her comment about me, and I trying to speak calmly, but seems like my emotion didn't want to hide anymore, my sadness appear suddenly and with heavy heart, I mad at her......
I can feel her sadness while we're on the phone, now I even can't imagine how is she now.......
I hope she didn't do anything stupid right now...........

BIG PROBS............

After long time I'm not write at this blog, my problems with her was worst.......

Both of us fight each other because of one stupid reason, and I don't want to talk about it anymore...............

Now, we just fine........ But the shadow of our problems is still following me.........

GOD, please make this bad shadow stay awaay from our relationship.......



I LOVE HER SO MUCH.........................

Stupid Me.........

Today, I was having a bad experience......
She told me earlier that the way I treat her was diferrent today.......
I don't know what am I thinking today, but it's surely make my couple feel uncomfortable........

I wish this kind of situation never happen again.......

What am I thinking???

On 28th August 2009........
something is bothering me, and you know what it is, because I'm already said it at the last post before this.....

In the night, both of us can't sleep because one same reason.......
And then, in the middle of the night, I'm asking some crazy words and also I'm asking her a question that totally weird......
Well, she did answer my question wthout doubt anymore.......
I'm sure a little bit surprised because of her answer.......
and until now, I'm still think of her............

The Misunderstood........

Last night, I was checking my friendster and her's also......
when I read her shoutout.....I already think that something is happening in her mind..............
Earlier today, I ask her about her shoutout....and she said no she didn't......
I'm having a little bit bad feeling about that, so I ask her to tell the truth.......she almost mad because I'm asking this stupid answer, but her answer is still "No, I didn't...."

Well, after the second answer, I'm finally feel a bit better, and I also told her the reason why I'm asking that question........
And now, both of us are understanding each other and I'm apologising to her because I'm miss understand her feeling to me........

I hope this kind of situation is not going to happen again between us........

Love at First Side.........

Last two days was the unexpectable day.......
Somebody is asking me to become her boyfriend..........
At first, my heart wan to say"WAW.......!!" because I never though that I can have girlfriend this year.........
And my answer to her, of course I say "Yes, I do..." because this is my opportunity.......

And now, we already in "dating man/woman" status.....
Now, I'm still can't believe it.............
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